Selfish

I am be being selfish right now but a good friend told me that it was time to. All my counselors I've been to and professors and mentor's I've confided in have said that I need to take time for myself. I have problems doing this.
I'm really sick of estrogen levels. I've been hanging out with the same 3 people for basically the past week and they have been a great refresher and make me not miss the drama that is contained within this dorm. Unneeded. Uncalled for. Useless.
Yet, I sat there and cried about how stressed and frustrated I was once I got back to campus.

There is just going to be a lot more change going on in my life and it's not necessarily comfortable change and I have to be open to it. I haven't been. I haven't even been willingly to let myself be open to any sort of change that isn't convient for me.

I may be being selfish. I am just sick of expectations that aren't followed out of courtesy in return or unneeded drama and everything. I am on my last end and for some reason I'm having trouble with patience.

I'm sorry if this hurts anyone.

I just quit making an effort and I will again. I'll end up apologizing and kneeing on my knees.

I'm just brain dead right now.