Blog for the summer

This summer I am in Guatemala so I have made an alternate blog for the summer:

http://kparkexpeditions.blogspot.com/

Hope you're able to enjoy and get a glimpse of life here.

Love you!!

together forever?

85 relationships

16 engagements

12 marriages

people my age - not including the second person in the couple who I happen to be friends with as well.

what is the world coming to?


well i'm going to go out on a date :-)

peace

Impress

Tonight I said stupid things that don't represent the person I am to impress.
Really I'm embarrassed that I would do such a thing. Now I'm sitting here praying, hoping God will forgive me for feeling like I was being like Peter. I want to represent the Lord in everything I do. I don't want to impress. I'm sorry. Please forgive me Lord.

I post this without fear of judgement because:
1.) it is my blog
2.) above all - in hope that those that read this and care about me will pray about where i have struggled
3.) i love Jesus with all my heart and soul

Life is a Song

Well is this why you cling to every little thing
And pulverize and derange all your senses
Maybe life is a song but you're scared to sing along
Until the very ending

Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From the chains and shackles that they're in



Lately I feel like these lyrics apply to my relationship with Christ or maybe just how I'm suppose to live my life everyday

Let go of everything you know and just live, don't be afraid.

Lately I've been analyzing and worrying too much and I just need to let go and be free.

I am a new soul, each and everyday I change a little bit.

I don't want to be afraid to sing along.

I am now trying to sing as loud (even if terribly) as I can :-)

Song by Patrick Park listen to it, it's great

List to remember

Joel
Brandon
Anson
Andrew H
Andrew N
Steven
Jerwei
Matt
Jesse
Kristina
Cody
Jj

Selfish

I am be being selfish right now but a good friend told me that it was time to. All my counselors I've been to and professors and mentor's I've confided in have said that I need to take time for myself. I have problems doing this.
I'm really sick of estrogen levels. I've been hanging out with the same 3 people for basically the past week and they have been a great refresher and make me not miss the drama that is contained within this dorm. Unneeded. Uncalled for. Useless.
Yet, I sat there and cried about how stressed and frustrated I was once I got back to campus.

There is just going to be a lot more change going on in my life and it's not necessarily comfortable change and I have to be open to it. I haven't been. I haven't even been willingly to let myself be open to any sort of change that isn't convient for me.

I may be being selfish. I am just sick of expectations that aren't followed out of courtesy in return or unneeded drama and everything. I am on my last end and for some reason I'm having trouble with patience.

I'm sorry if this hurts anyone.

I just quit making an effort and I will again. I'll end up apologizing and kneeing on my knees.

I'm just brain dead right now.

Coincidences or Godwinks?

Last night, I was doing my devotions and when I opened up April 2nd the topic was death - one of my best friend's dad died yesterday.
For days and maybe the past week, I have written papers, read books and sermons, had multiple different classes taught about wealth and riches. Then I picked the unopened Nooma entitled Rich. I am talking to God and wondering what He wants me to get out of these similar relating things that are going on in my life.
I'm not making much sense yet...