accountability

I tend to be other peoples accountability partners, but somehow over the years I have missed placed my own. I have had a chance to become closer to my sister and brother; asking my sister about her relationship with Christ as well as my mother and father. Though that Mr. or Mrs. Accountability (specific individuals) I had when I was in high school and years previous has some how grown away within time. With grow in several different directions, I may have lost touch but mostly just lost that special connection with that person.
I do rely on God for infinite amounts of almost everything. But aren’t you suppose to have an accountability partner in life? My dad has his small group of guys that meet for breakfast, my sister has her husband, my brother has his friends, my mom has her husband and her church group. My previous accountability partners almost all have their wife or husband to fulfill that gap if needed. This becomes one of the main reasons I miss my very best friend; I’m thankful for a messaging program, it’s the lifeline in our friendship.
I miss that person at church that used to always follow up and ask about my devotionals were going, the coffee date where you both could discuss with one another what was going on in your life and not hold back and read the Bible together. Though I really hope that that is alright with God that I don’t really have that right now….hope He wouldn’t be upset, I trust that He knows what He is doing right now in my life.

Friday night, alone

So I'm sitting alone on a Friday, doing homework. I even turned down plans because I was waiting for someone...wow wouldn't my father be proud that I'm doing homework on a Friday night.
I'm so lonely, its the first time that I don't want to act like it and just pretend that I'm not that I am. No one is here.
Quit being sick and play with me.